The crescent of
the moon looked beautiful, hidden behind the clouds. It was a breezy night, the
roads were quiet. Mumbai looked different at 3 am- calm. But, there was some
uneasiness; Rashmi was awake. Her brown eyes looked tired but they wouldn’t
sleep. She didn’t want ‘the dream’ to haunt her again.
Gasping for
breath she sat on the bed and wiped the sweat from her forehead. Her puffy eyes checked the other side of the
bed; it was vacant. It was her decision to stay alone, but sometimes she wished
someone could hold her.
She got into her
chappals and went to the bathroom.
“Aaaaaaaaaaaa!!”
She screamed as she switched on the light.
It took her a
few seconds to realise that it was her own frightened self in the mirror. The
splash of water on her face was invigorating. She tied her loose brown curls
into a bun and went to the kitchen.
Rashmi made a
quick cup of coffee and went to her favourite place in her apartment, her
balcony. The cold breeze and the hot coffee were comforting.
It was 3: 30 am,
flashed her phone as she picked it. She dialled a number and disconnected it
hastily. Her fingers trembled; they wanted to dial the number again, while her
mind told her not to. She chose the latter like always and put her phone aside.
Sleep was gradually taking over her but she wouldn’t sleep yet.
She got her
diary and a pen from her room and sat on the bean bag.
“It wasn’t my fault! It wasn’t my fault! I
was just 14……” the pen carved as she slept under the cloudy sky.
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The alarm on her
phone beeped loudly at 7 15 am. Rashmi put it off and slept again. Her phone rang at 9 am; she jumped off the
bean bag.
“I.. I am on my
way, just reaching, please cover up for me.” It was her annual appraisal and
she was late. She was ready in the next 10 minutes and reached office in
another 20.
The Head of
Marketing of Purple Creations, Mr Makhija was furious. At 55, he was the senior
most in the office. He was snobbish with women and Rashmi didn’t like it. Only
last week he infuriated her; he believed the clients were happy because she was
a woman. Today she was at fault but couldn’t explain the last night to Mr
Makhija.
Rashmi gasped
for breathe as she rushed to Mr Makhija’s cabin. She adjusted her skirt and
tied her hair neatly as she entered. She apologised for the delay but Mr
Makhija frowned, his angry eyes greeted her, “The appraisal is over!”
“But, Mr
Makhija…”
A visibly
annoyed Mr Makhija continued, “Is this how you dress for work?”
She was numb.
“This is
not how you dress Rashmi, wear your denim with a loose top. Don’t invite
attention, you are a girl.” She could hear her mother speaking to a
14-year-old Rashmi.
She retaliated a
few seconds later, “Why don’t you teach me?”
She wouldn’t
leave without speaking her mind today and continued, “What bothers you, the
length of my skirt or your eyes that keep wandering where they shouldn’t? 5 years and my clothes speak more than my
work. Before you tell me to leave, I am going to clear my desk!” An overwhelmed
Rashmi banged the door as she left.
Mr Makhija was
flabbergasted. He was never spoken to like this. A 28-year-old woman had
insulted him. WOMAN! How could a woman insult him? He could see Sagar at the
door when Rashmi left his cabin. Mr Makhija felt ridiculed and must do
something about it.
“Sagar!!” he
yelled.
Sagar had been
in Mr Makhija’s team for 10 years. He was the one who brought Rashmi on board
and knew she was the best performer in his team. His empathetic eyes followed
her. Just then Mr Makhija screamed his
lungs out, “Sagar!!! You hired this one! I had always told you women like her
are a misfit. Did you hear what she said?”
“I will be right
back Mr Makhija.” Sagar hurried, agitating him even more.
He ran up to
Rashmi and asked her, “Need some help with packing your stuff?”
Rashmi was
upset; she had expected him to stand by her. This could not have been her
reward for the sleepless nights she had given to this company. She had created
the best advertising solutions for their clients. Her first tear dropped and
the rest followed in an unbroken stream.
Sagar looked
into her wet brown eyes and told her, “You are really strong Rashmi. You were
right, it wasn’t your fault.”
“It wasn’t my fault mom, it wasn’t my fault…” Rashmi could
see her 14-year-old self, pleading.
“Guess what, you
are not leaving alone, I am coming with you.” Sagar winked.
She was in
dithers. “But.. Sagar…Saaagar…” she called as he ran to Mr Makhija’s cabin.
“Mr Makhija,
Sorry, I had to speak to Rashmi.” Sagar breathed heavily.
“Just take her
resignation and tell her to leave as soon as possible. I don’t want to see her
in my office!! Women like her….” Mr Makhija was shivering with anger.
“Sir, WE are
leaving.” He cut him as he spoke.
“Whattttt? Have
you gone out of your mind? After 10 years here you should know where you
belong. Don’t you know you are due for a promotion?” Mr Makhija sounded a
little nervous and defeated.
“Thanks for the
experience Mr Makhija; I know where I belong. I should have known that much
earlier.” Sagar banged the door of his cabin as he left.
After a few
hours of paper work Sagar and Rashmi left the premises of Purple Creations,
forever.
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It had been an
eventful day. Rashmi was tired and quiet. Sagar offered to drop her home as he
started his car.
“I told you to stay away from men, you are a girl.” She heard her
mother scolding 14 year old Rashmi.
“Helllloooo!!
Sagar waved at her. She nodded and got into the car.
“Umm… would you
like to have something?” She asked him nervously as they reached her society
gate. He agreed and accompanied her. This was the first time Sagar was visiting
her place.
He was stunned
with the beautiful earthen pots placed at the entrance. He picked one as Rashmi
opened the door.
She smiled and
said, “I paint these pots and wall hangings over the weekend. The next time you
come over, you will see some more of these.”
She kept her
carton on one of the corners and went into the kitchen to make some instant
noodles and coffee for them.
Sagar was
awestruck; She had done up her house really well. The vibrant wall hangings
that she had painted herself, the cushions and the curtains added colour to her
beige and walnut coloured living room.
He walked along
the wall and there were numerous photo frames at the corner. Each captured
Rashmi with one or two more people.
“Is that you
Rashmi? How old are you in this- 14 or 15? And is this your mom?”
“It wasn’t my fault mom, it wasn’t…” the
14-year-old Rashmi pleaded in her mind.
“Careful! Sagar rushed in to simmer the stove.
“Oh, sorry.
I..I..” Rashmi’s voice cracked.
“It’s OK you sleepy one. You look such a kid
in that pic, your mom looks beautiful.”
Rashmi forced a
smile and headed out of the kitchen with the coffee mugs. Sagar followed her
with the bowl of noodles. She lay the plates and forks on the table and Sagar
dug into the couch comfortably. She sat next to him and poured him some coffee.
“I think we can
start our own agency. Would you like to be my partner?” Sagar suggested as he
sipped his coffee.
Rashmi felt
elated. Sagar had been a good boss, but today she knew he trusted her too. She
nodded in affirmation as she sipped her coffee.
“We have
experience and we know the clients. But, it will come with some adjustment- no
salary for a few months, may be years.”
That wasn’t a
concern for her; she had her savings to take care of that.
He added, “You
can save this rent too, your parents stay in Mumbai only no?”
“Noo!!” She was
anxious. Sagar noticed this. She was quick to add, “I mean, I am so used to
staying alone, I can’t stay with anyone now.” Rashmi was sweating.
“Are you ok? It
isn’t that hot, why are you sweating?” Sagar was worried.
“No. Nothing, I
think I need some fresh air.” She rushed to the balcony and lit a cigarette.
Sagar was confused, something was odd, but he couldn’t figure what it was.
“I am sorry Rashmi, it’s been so many years, please
come home.” Rashmi
heard her mother again.
The sun wasn’t
down, but it was pleasant. Sagar followed her to the balcony. She lit another
cigarette; he took that from her and extinguished it. Sagar’s inquisitive eyes
met her frightened ones. None of them spoke for a while, but there were words
in their silence. Sagar knew there was something that was troubling her, but
she didn’t speak at all.
“I will see you
tomorrow then, day one for us.” Sagar patted her shoulder. Rashmi smiled and
looked at the busy streets of Mumbai as Sagar went for the door.
Just as he
turned, he saw her diary. He opened it and read, “It wasn’t my fault! It wasn’t my fault! I was just 14……”
What could this
mean? He flipped a few pages and read, “I
can’t forgive you, mom. I will never come back…”
He flipped some
more pages and read, “I hate you! You
can’t haunt me. How could he do this to me? He calls himself my father. I was
just 14. I was growing mom and it wasn’t my fault. I was not dressed right and
papa could do ‘that’ to me. Once, twice… so many times…You were my mother and
you told me it was my fault. How could you blame me, mom? It wasn’t my fault mom, it wasn’t...”
Rashmi snatched
the diary from him. She was exasperated, shivering as she spoke, “How dare
you?? Get out of here Sagar! It wasn’t my fault; I was just 14.” She broke down
like a child.
Sagar was
appalled; he had never expected a father to molest his own daughter. Rashmi had
been dealing with this trauma since 14 years. He felt sorry for her, for every
woman who faced this.
Sagar did
something he had never done before. He hugged her as she wept in his arms. He
caressed her and said, “It wasn’t your fault Rashmi, it wasn’t your fault.” In
that moment a new friendship developed for life.
Sagar had to
help Rashmi, she didn’t deserve this pain. He looked for helpline numbers and
talked to people. He finally spoke to a therapist, Mrs Kapoor and started with
the first step. He next spoke to the police officer and informed them about
Rashmi’s trauma.
Rashmi needed to
come out of the trouble- it wasn’t her fault.
Its sooo emotional and sensitive. Unexpected circumstances and to bear the same it requires infinity courage and deadly strength. :(
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